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Embryo transferred!!

Everything went very well today. The 2 embryos have both survived and they are very happy with their progress. One is 8 celled with minimal fragmentation – it will be frozen this afternoon. The one that was transferred was 7 celled and is “perfect”.

Dr H was a bit surprised about how well they had done, this surprised me. He says to stay positive and try to relax. My blood test will be on March 12.

My acupuncture guy has done his bit, so all I need to do is take it easy – easier said than done.

Hopefully my little embie is burrowing in as I write. The two week wait begins… 

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My little embryos divided overnight.  I now have 2 x 4 cell embryos which is exactly what they should be.

Going in to the clinic tomorrow to have the best one transferred.  Also having the acupuncture before and after.

So far, so good… 

Good news.

Two of the four eggs were mature and they have both fertilised normally overnight.

Nurse Judy will call me tomorrow to update their progress.  Embryo transfer is tentatively booked for Thursday morning. Will book my pre & post transfer acupuncture sessions now. 

I feel relieved… they just need to hang in there now and keep dividing beautifully…. so, so, so relieved.

Well I don’t want to count my chickens before they are hatched, or my eggs before they are fertilised BUT the EPU was this morning and they collected 4. 4 from 4 is good. I feel a bit sore – will take it easy now.

Stay tuned – I will find out tomorrow if they are any good…. 

I have picked myself up and am going to tackle this one step at a time. The tears have dried up for now.

First step – Trigger shot given! EPU in 38 hours. Nurse Judy told me I will be first in on Monday morning.

Hopefully the shot will ripen whatever I have there into a state of perfection. If fertilisation goes well the ET will be on Thursday. 

Had acupuncture and massage this morning.  Can’t say that I’m not giving it every chance – relax, relax, relax. I have started to warm up to my acupuncture guy, I found him a bit mysterious at first, he is one of those people who stares right into you when you are talking (like he knows what you are thinking). He says all of the right things – got me to smile today, and he has nice strong hands. He studied here as well as in China – seems to know what he is on about. We are going to do a session before and after transfer (all going well).

It is out of my hands….

Things didn’t go so well at the doctors today. I had my final blood test early this morning followed by an ultrasound.

When I walked into Dr H’s room for my ultrasound I told him I was feeling nervous – he answered with “me too”. WTF??? He had obviously seen my blood test results – E2 was only 1692 – he wanted it to be at least 4-5000. He said: “face it, you are getting old”. I made a nervous laugh and said something about wrinkles on my ovaries, he agreed.

The ultrasound was really depressing, there are 3 follicles on the left (15.6, 19.2, 20) and 1 on the right (15.7). He thinks I will probably lose the big one over the weekend. So maybe there will be 3. I know that this is not good. The odds aren’t good that there will be an egg in each, they probably won’t all fertilise.  I feel that I will be lucky if I get one embryo. I know that I might only need one BUT I believe the numbers, I read the stats, this is a numbers game and at the moment they aren’t in my favour.

I feel useless and helpless. I feel like such a dud. My body has let me down. I am so worried that there won’t be anything to transfer. I am worrying about the expense. I want to stop crying. These hormones are really fucking with my mind.

I wish I knew 5 years ago what I know now. I would have started much sooner. I feel that I have brought this on myself.

Waiting for the right time, waiting for the right man… not wanting to settle. I would settle now if I had the chance.

Had the E2 blood test today (the one that I had insisted upon). It was only 355 after 5 days on Puregon. This is obviously not what it should be as they have now increased my dosage from 225IUI to 275IUI. What is normal? What doses do others take?

What should the estrogen level be? I recall my doctor saying something about wanting it in the thousands before EPU. I was hoping for EPU on Monday 25 Feb, they will be in my town doing EPU on M, T & W. IVF nurse said it should double daily… they will do another test on Friday and an ultrasound.  I am now really worried that there might not be any follicles to scan.

Ms Heathen at Reproductively Challenged has challenged me to tell you a few random facts about myself. The rules are as follows:

1. Link to the person who tagged you.
2. Post the rules.
3. Share 6 non-important things/habits/quirks about yourself.
4. Tag at least 3 people.
5. Make sure the people you tagged KNOW you tagged them by commenting on what you did.

So, here goes:

  1. I have travelled extensively throughout Asia. I have been to Indonesia, Malaysia, Vietnam, Laos, Thailand, Nepal, India and China. If I came into money I would never stop travelling. I have an extremely long list of places that I MUST visit. I would like to do more of Europe and I WILL do an overland safari through Africa. My maybebaby will be a traveller as soon as I can strap a backpack on him/her. I have seen Stonehenge, the Taj Mahal, the Eifel Tower, and the Great Wall of China. I want to see Machu Pichu, the Pyramids and squillions of other things.
  2. At 31, after a major health scare – I quit my job of 14 years, sold my house (that I had just built), left all of my friends, moved interstate, partied so hard for 8 months that I seriously (not really) thought I might be becoming an alcoholic, and then got my shit together and enrolled in university to do a Bachelor of Nursing Science.
  3. I have a little (well actually a BIG) handbag “thing”.
  4. I was once held up in a bank robbery.
  5. I am an operating theatre nurse now but I don’t really like seeing lots of blood.
  6. I try to read a book each week. Reading is good for you. It broadens the mind, it can take you on a journey, it teaches you lessons about life. It inspires me to want to see more, do more, be more. There is no excuse for being bored.

I have seen this done now on most of the blogs that I read, and because I am a slack tart I won’t be tagging….

It has been 18 days on the Synarel – hellish. The headaches come and go but the hot flushes are there daily – several times daily. I work in an operating theatre which is chilled to 18C and I still sweat. I get so hot that I think I’m going to faint. Only 4-5 more days to go.

I will have my 5th shot of Puregon tonight – dosage 225 IUI – God I hope it is enough!! Had a blood test last week for my estrogen level – it was 41, the Synarel has done the job. Apparently anything under 200 was a good thing. When I did my IUI – my E2 level was only 75 without the Synarel. Old, old, aging ovaries…..

Will be having a blood test in the morning (that I insisted on) to make sure that the Puregon is working. The IVF clinic wasn’t too worried but I insisted as I want to have enough time to increase the dose (if it isn’t raising the E2 fast enough).

On track for ultrasound on Friday, and hopefully, EPU and ET next week. The ever present worry is still with me. I pick over in my mind all of the steps that have to go right.

I am continuing with regular acupuncture and trying to stay positive. I even had a bikini wax in anticipation of next week, that’s kind of positive, isn’t it?? 😉

Well I am wishing time would hurry up!!  I want to get on with this round of IVF, I want it to have already been done, I want to have my BFP!!

Had my appointment with the IVF nurse last week and collected all of my medications. Also had my second acupuncture appointment – it is so NOT relaxing!! I have looked at a lot of research which included a trial that involved over 800 women which clearly shows that pregnancy using IVF is twice as likely to occur with acupuncture. It has to be worth a go. My guy recommends a few sessions for relaxation and then followed up with a session prior to EPU and 2 sessions on day of ET (before and after).

Went to an information session that my clinic holds for “first cyclers” and have now decided to transfer one embryo. Dr H had advised that he was fine with tranfering 2 but after a lot of consideration I believe that the improved odds of pregnancy is only slight, compared with the greater chances of something going wrong with a multiple pregnancy. I don’t think I could take the guilt, I want to give my-maybe-baby the best chance it can have. I have decided that if the IVF works for me I will (hopefully) have some frozen embryos, will also store some of the donor’s sperm and then I have the chance for a second baby later.

Today is Day 5 of using the Synarel spray – have had a dull headache on and off the whole time and feeling tired. I take my last pill tomorrow morning.

Trying to be positive.